Alcohol // poem

22 October 2016

The stars are spinning
My makeup is blurred
The ground is the sky
My speech sounds quite slurred

My mind's somewhere distant
Memories are not formed
I spit out vile laughter
At what, I'm not sure

Is this fun? I wonder
As I try to stand straight
I'm disgusted by my friends'
zombie-like state

They say that they're proud
Because I'm submitting to this
Were you not proud of me
When I held to what I believed in?

So I make the decision.
Exclusion's a risk
But I'm not sure it's worth it
Just to fit in.

// Jeani


5 comments :

  1. Social gatherings usually have that compelling influence that gets the best of most of us. As they say, we humans are social beings.

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    1. I totally agree, I'm an extrovert so I'm very social, but I never usually let anyone else tell me what I should do, but peer pressure is a lot more subtle than people think. I did a video on my YouTube channel actually about this, my friends were saying that they were proud of me because I was drinking and that really made me feel like they weren't proud of me when I wasn't, I always feel like an outsider at our parties whenever everyone else is drunk and I'm not, so this one time, like you say, it got the better of me. I felt terrible the next day because of that, I didn't have a hangover or anything, but I just hated the fact that I had given in to that when I really didn't want to drink. Since the event which I wrote about in the poem, I have enjoyed the parties a lot more because I know I'm not missing out!

      Thank you for your comment, I will check out your blog now!!!

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    2. Very true, I think the most important part of not falling victim in such situations is sticking by your morals and values despite what others think. I'll check out your youtube channel for that video, Thanks Ellie :)

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  2. Wow, this is really powerful. I love it.

    Jemima x
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Thank you // Jeani